Like Sands Through the Hourglass

... No, this is not an episode of DOOL. It is however a night of reflection for me. I love New Years... I always have. I used to keep a scrapbook of sorts (not like what people do now) of everything that went on in a year. It would contain movie passes, awards, tickets to events, newspaper articles, etc. I'd tack as much as I could to the tack board behind my door and then on New Years Eve, I'd take it all down and put it in the book. I love how it is a time of year that makes almost everyone slow down for a second and take a look back at things... and if they want, set goals for the year to come. I love counting my blessings and taking a moment to reflect on everything. So, tonight I did...

I mentioned in the last post that I used to have a Xanga blog (2 actually). Tonight I took some time to re-read some of my old ramblings. I laughed at a few of them; cried and some too. I have changed so much since them... and the most shocking part was to see the areas that I haven't grown in. Those were kind of a slap in the face, but I'm going to choose to see it as God gently reminding me of areas that need attention. ha.

Reading through some of them I was instantly transported back to a place in time. I could see myself slumped over the keyboard in my old Dallas apartment, or the same keyboard, but in Phoenix. It was wild to experience memories I had forgotten I had. Feelings I once felt as I typed those words came back and I just soaked them up. At the other end of things, there were some posts that I don't remember posting at all... and some that had meanings far beneath the surface of the words. It was fun and crazy all at the same time. The one thing I noticed that hadn't changed is my love for quotes. They were everywhere.

Anyway, the point is... I had a good time remembering the past tonight... and an even better one determining how I was going to learn and grow from it.

"Never be afraid to ask a question, especially of yourself..."~ Brian Kates